firstly, i foresee a major efflux. haha..and too bad, really. i'm not intending to stay long myself. i'd rather be locked in my room, reading from dawn to dusk, taking occasional pee breaks. and while i can, i'm not going to subject myself to shit i don't need, and i can extricate myself anytime i wish. so i will. soon.
i'm so happy these days! know why? cos i haven't been working. only been reading, schooling and playing in the band. and this is what i want in my life. i spent allllll day at band today. morning practise, lunch break, afternoon practise, dinner break, night practise. i can't smile now cos my cheeks hurt. i'm tired beyond imagination. i nearly fell asleep while playing the piece. but i'm also deeply satisfied. i had a fantastic day, around some pretty fantastic people, doing what i love, and can honestly say i'm getting better at doing what i love. taking a break to read while i can. gosh...i love how free i feel. how unflustered. how unfrustrated. how happy. and i love being happy. what's not to love? and i know though i might not be able to play at saints' hallelujah, i'd still attend practise fairly religiously just so i can do what i love, be around great people, and have time to myself. really..time for me to just sit and think and enjoy my own company. just me and the music.
i really can't wait for the concert!!! wheeeeeee.....so excited so excited so excited!!!
